Because my sexual drive was continually growing, and because I
would not dare to seek complete sexual gratification to orgasm with
a member of the opposite sex, I found myself in a routine of
masturbation five to six times a week.
Granberg (personal interview with Don Granberg, March 20, 1963), in observing life
in a boy's reformatory, reports that the boys also joke about masturbating, referring to
it as "juking off." To make fun of a guy, they might say, "Your sheets are so stiff they
could stand by themselves." A handkerchief may be referred to with such a statement
as, "There's my man's juke rag."
For adolescent boys on the "outside," masturbation is often associated with
dating, although not part of the date. For example, a boy who doesn't accept
adolescent coitus may masturbate prior to a date in order to reduce sexual desire.
I sometimes tried to masturbate before going on dates, to lower my
desire, but it seemed that when I wanted some "lovin'," there was
nothing to stop me.
He may, by himself, continue the stimulation that the date inspired, to orgasm.
I would often go out with a girl I had been dating steadily and
never go beyond the 'necking stage,' but return home and continue
the affair by masturbation.
His favorite girl, whether he is actually dating her or not, may be taken into fantasy,
accompanying his masturbatory experiences.
The time came when I had a "crush" on a certain girl. I turned my
"crush" on her into a fantasy that was soon incorporated into my
masturbation. The fantasies always concern a romantic, passionate
love affair that ended in mutually desired coitus.
Masturbating can make the hurt of a broken dating relationship tolerable.
After I stopped taking this girl out, I began masturbating for the
first time in my life. I used the method of lying down on the couch
or bed, almost simulating the motions I went through with her. I
used her for all my fantasies in my first masturbations.
I have masturbated since my girlfriend (with whom I had sexual
intercourse) and I broke our steady relationship. This helps me to
release tension and relax.
From depth interviews, Sorensen found elements of romance, force, group sex,
violence, and oral and anal sex in the masturbatory fantasies of adolescents
(Sorensen, 1973, p. 137). In the first case to follow, the boy rarely utilizes fantasy at all
when masturbating, but when he does, it is a love fantasy involving someone whom he
knows and cares about. In the second case, the girl fantasizes the same scenes when
masturbating as when petting with her boyfriend. They are usually impersonal and
deviant in that they involve two females and one male.
In masturbating I have used pictures and fantasies. The pictures
are often from Playboy, and the fantasies usually center on deep
love rather than pure eroticism, usually involving someone I know
and care about. However, more often than not, I use neither of
these. Just the feeling is enough. All of my senses seem to focus in
on one sensation, and I become totally immersed in a most
pleasurable feeling. The feeling has been good all along, but with
the gradual loss of guilt it has become much more enjoyable.
Masturbation is physically necessary for me until the day comes
when the better alternative is readily available.
I had watched a television movie that showed a man feeling a
woman's breasts while she was wearing a tight blouse and no bra. I
sat down on the bed, closed my eyes and visualized a man feeling
me as I had seen the man in the movie feel the woman. I lay down
on the bed and took the pillow as my lover. I was so deep in my
fantasy and enjoyed the feeling so much that I didn't realize the
pillow was rubbing my genitalia. The climax that followed was a
complete surprise, and I remember trying to discover how I had
achieved such a good feeling.