Dilemma. (1967).
Wish that I hadn't. (1964).
Extended much too far; boredom. (1967).
Dirty. (1963).
Doomed; completely overpowered; practically
ruined both our lives. (1965).
Completely caught up; other aspects suffered.(1964).
Skeptical; state of confusion. (1967).
Shed tears; frustrated; consciences would not
permit; morally obligated but couldn't
understand why; blind acceptance of
standards. (1965).
Scared; couldn't accept fully or give fully; felt
"dragged into it"; never allowed a desire
and therefore little participation. (1971).
First Coitus
Felt like I had just become a man. (1967).
Very proud. (1967).
The sensation seemed to last forever; rounded
out my personality; toned me down;
bursting with pride. (1967).
Very satisfying. (1965).
Assured pleasure; common bond. (1967).
An animalistic act; not any enjoyment; not
any great amount of pleasure; doubted;
did not want to do it again. (1965).
Character-shaking; terribly afraid; terribly
traumatic; resolved never to become so
involved. (1968).
Tremendous sense of guilt; used. (1968).
Respect deepened; had come to terms with
myself; greatest desire was to serve him;
commitment; relationship of trust. (1966).
Did not seem bad or wrong. (1965).
Happy. (1967).
Curiosity was quenched; knew what it was and
liked it. (1965).
Ego was bolstered; will be satisfied; needed to
prove my manliness; glad. (1963).
Selfish satisfaction; warm glow. (1967).
Do not consider wrong.
Wondered; suffered greatly; took it very hard.
(1965).
Very guilty; unhappy; taking advantage of
trust; worry; felt very bad; wish it could be
the other way; afraid I may always have
guilt feelings, never feel right. (1965).