During one of the visits of my next door girl friend she walked into my bathroom while I (a boy) was urinating. She said, "What a funny way to go to the bathroom," and left. Apparently this was the first time she became aware of the male penis.
A day or two later she expressed a desire to
"take our pants off." This seemed a mere viola
tion of the nudity taboo rather than anything
related to sex as I had no knowledge of such
things.
In search of greater privacy we went to
my bedroom. From then on, she was the instructor
and I was the pupil.
She told me to remove my
trousers and underpants and as I did she took off
her panties, laid on her back in the bed with her
legs spread, and lifted her skirt.
I distinctly remember getting an erection and noticed her
pleasure at this occurrence. She told me to lie
on the bed with her. I did.
Then she told me to
roll over on top of her. This seemed like a
strange thing to do, but I decided to comply.
Where my friend acquired all the knowledge she
displayed I don't know, but I would guess she
started out asking about my penis and ended up
learning how to perform coitus.
An interesting conjecture can be raised from
this incidence. What if her next instruction had
been to insert my penis into her vagina?
Defi
nitely there are two things I simply don't know:
whether or not the relative sizes of genitalia
would have made insertion possible and whether
either of us would have experienced orgasm. But
of one fact I am confident: I could have performed
sexual intercourse that day with a total
lack of knowledge, desire, or instinct for reproduction.
It is well known that romances sometimes develop between boys and
girls during childhood. The romance may contain the traditional elements
of respect and affection on the part of the boy, accompanied by
the desire to serve his beloved.
He carries her books to and from
school and may protect her from the teasing and torments of other boys.
Traditionally reared girls are more accepting in their attitude toward
romances of other children than are boys. Girls may snicker at and make
jokes about the girl who is having a romance, but they do not exclude
her from their group, as a boy might be excluded from the boys' gang.
There is evidence that girls are envious of the girl who has a boy to
accompany her to school and who receives thoughtful attention instead
of the annoyances that they have been accustomed to receive from boys.
(Hurlock, 1950, p. 489).
At the tender age of five, I thought the idea of a
boy friend was appealing. I must already have
formed a general concept that heterosexual relationships
were much approved and accepted by society.
I remember us experimenting with kissing on
several occasions, and also remember feeling that
I was in love.